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Another Apology

Internet, I have failed you. I meant to be good this time and update on my appointed days, and I could not. I realized, perhaps a month or two ago, why I could not. I have nothing to say about movies. I think I might have things to say about documentaries but I have to be in a very specific mood. But that’s because a lot of how documentaries work is based on how they communicate a message to the viewer and make the viewer feel. But I can’t talk about silent film outside of “hey guys, check this thing out.” And that’s not really anything. I have no real way to access how to look at these things without putting a huge amount of effort into learning how to think and talk about film. Beyond that, I’m just not passionate about them.

Know what I am passionate about? Fandom. I’m fascinated by and enthused about the way people interact with media. I love it. And so I’m starting anew. I’m going to write about fandom. I might someday write about fan theories or fandom drama, but other people have done quite a bit with those and I don’t want to just be a knock off of Fandom Wank. Therefore, I am starting with ship wars. So, everyone, welcome to me arbitrating well-known ship wars. And join me later this week as I dissect one of the great ship wars of my youth: Harry/Hermione vs Ron/Hermione.


Empathy on the Next Level

I’ve done little else besides work and stress about research plans. When I do these things, I binge podcasts. One of my favorite ones I’ve listened to in the past months has been the Heaven’s Gate podcast, produced by Stitcher. The Heaven’s Gate cult was a group that believed that their leaders were the two witnesses from the biblical book of Revelation. These two, according to their teachings, were extraterrestrial life forms sent to gather followers who were ready to ascend to the “next level,” which only opened every two thousand years. While there are still a few followers, the group came to a conclusion for many in 1997, when 39 cult members (including their leader) committed suicide in a house near San Diego.

Facts about Heaven’s Gate are interesting enough on their own, but what really makes this podcast great is the host, Glynn Washington. While not having a previous relationship with Heaven’s Gate, Washington grew up in another apocalyptic cult. This gives him a heavy dose of sympathy and empathy for the followers of Heaven’s Gate that I thing would be difficult for most of us to really get at. His message isn’t “this is what this crazy cult did,” but “these were people, generally intelligent and reasonable people, and this could happen to you.” And I think this is a very important message. Most of us, or maybe just me, go around thinking that we could never be taken in by a cult or anything of that nature and other the people that do. But all it really takes is trusting the wrong person and eventually finding yourself in too deep.

In many ways, this podcast does what Leah Remini’s show on Scientology is also trying to do. The podcast, however, has it easier in many respects. Remini has a very personal relationship with Scientology, which still very much exists and does get new members. Washington and Stitcher are doing something of a retrospective on a group that was never big to begin with and has only decreased in size. It’s easier to humanize the leaders and members of Heaven’s Gate, since they aren’t actively recruiting to something that’s harmful. They also need to be humanized more. We might mock, but we can name famous people who are Scientologists and, while we may casually throw around the word “cult” in connection with the group, Heaven’s Gate destroyed itself. Its members are gone and they went by their own choosing in order to follow a UFO they thought was behind the Hale-Bopp comet*. That, at least in my mind, is a step up from what Scientologists actually do.

If you’re into narrative, non-fiction podcasts (and if you aren’t squeamish about discussions of suicide), definitely give Stitcher’s Heaven’s Gate a listen. It’s well worth your while.


*Anyone remember what a disappoint Hale-Bopp was? I get it. It’s a comet and the platonic ideal of a comet is cool, but they’re real boring to look at. Especially when you’re six and all your teachers have been like “OMG Hale-Bopp, it’s a once in a lifetime thing!” and you get all excited and you’re on your deck and there’s like a smear in the sky and your parents are like “yup, that’s it” and all your expectations are crushed.

Harvest Moon: A New Obsession

Oh hey there, internet. It’s been a while. This is Uta (not Basil). Last time I talked to you, I made a really real super promise to actually post. And to this day, I have half-finished articles on “Making a Murderer” and “O.J. Simpson: Made in America” just waiting for me to finish them. They were going to be great October reading. But alas, studying for Ph.D. exams was not conducive to being able to express my thoughts about anything else. But I’ve had the past month to recover, so I’m back.

But not back enough to have lucid thoughts about things. So I’ve traded posting days with Basil, at least this week, so that I could ramble on about what I’ve been doing since Christmas: playing “Harvest Moon: A New Beginning” for Nintendo 3DS.

This game came out a while back. I actually avoided it, because I was told it wasn’t a particularly good game. And I have to say, the first week or so of in-game time are pretty boring. For those of you who don’t know, the Harvest Moon games are stylized farm life simulators. You play as a person (a boy when you aren’t allowed to choose gender, but some additions let you choose to be a girl) who has just inherited their family’s farm. You usually have some mission that will improve and/or save the village you’ve just moved to. To accomplish this, you plant and harvest crops, raise animals, collect things in the woods, and work with the harvest goddess and her sprite underlings. In this iteration, you move into a village just as one of the residents is moving out (with his family, if I remember correctly), leaving just you and three other residents in town. You’re left talking to an old man, an old woman, and a younger, middle-ish age woman over and over again. And collecting things. I did so much collecting. Sold so many bugs. You also get to start growing crops early on, but it’s still a pretty slow start.

Eventually, though, Neil moves in. This adorable little jerkwad is the livestock salesman. You can buy cows and chickens from him as soon as he moves in. He’s actually one of the eligible bachelors for those playing as a girl. I kinda have a thing for him. He’s a douche. But he’s just there, moping in a corner, getting upset when you go to his place to talk to him, taking it as a personal insult if you accidentally give him something he dislikes, lighting up and smiling like a child when you give him something he likes (moondrop flowers, guys. The secret is moondrop flowers). A young lady-smith also moves in during spring. She’s pretty cool. Soon after, another woman and her son move in. This is where everything gets more interesting. She’s an architect and asks you to help build a house for her based on blueprints she’s drawn up. After you do this, she recognizes your skill as a builder and begins selling blueprints to you. The old man in town, who seems to be somewhat in charge, comes up with the idea that you can help revitalize the town. After this point, not only does this guy keep coming up with festivals for you to participate in, but he also assigns you certain town restoration tasks. These include doing some more cosmetic things, like putting bushes around town, and more central tasks, like putting in other houses/businesses, which attract people to the town.

And this, my friends, is where I got obsessed. It’s so gratifying to check the things off the list for this make-believe town. You gotta go and collect things and work your farm so you can get/buy materials to make new shops and meet new characters. And then you have to enter competitions for your crops and animals. Then you have to make sure you have eight adult animals on your farm so that Neil starts selling alpacas. ALPACAS, GUYS. It’s great. It’s also a game that is easy to just keep playing. There aren’t really natural stopping points for gameplay. It’s so easy to just keep going, “just one more day…okay, just one more…”

All things considered, though, it’s still not a fantastic game. The controls aren’t particularly intuitive, especially when compared to my earlier, and very similar, obsession with “Rune Factory 4.” You can’t pick something up and carry it. Your character automatically puts it in the bag and you have to open that menu and tell your character to hold it. There is a fast-access button for the tools, but items like fodder and chicken feed aren’t considered tools in this version.

It’s still really fun, though. I might go play for a bit now. Farewell, internet.

Sorry, internet bros

As you may have noticed, my posting game has been anything but on point recently. I wish I had a nice excuse, but I’ve done nothing this month. But it was a good time doing nothing for the first time in maybe years. Anyway, I was gonna finally get around to my “Making a Murderer” post today, but it’s just not coming together in time. I will have it done by the 10th. In the meantime, enjoy this silent film version of Star Wars.

Do Men Dream of Electric Women?: “My Sex Robot”

Because I am fast becoming a connoisseur of what some might call trashy tv, I recently watched what I’m going to call a documentary on Netflix entitled “My Sex Robot.” As one might expect, this relatively short movie explores the world of sex robots. Most of the robots that are discussed in this movie, both those that are in development and are hoped for, are meant to be robotic women. This makes it a bit difficult to be nonjudgmental of the individuals in the documentary, especially when one is a woman herself. I don’t think this reaction is specifically gendered, however, as my boyfriend, who was at my place when I declared that this is what would be on the tv while I was making dinner, also felt that the program was set up to let you judge the guys who are into sex robots. The documentary itself somewhat wanders between different people who are somehow involved in the sex robot subculture, either as hopeful consumers or as developers. Since the actual facts of the development of sex robots are fairly mundane, I will focus here mainly on my reactions to the documentary.

At least as far as is presented in the documentary, there are two main schools of sex robotics. The one that seems more prevalent is the one that focuses on creating a robot that can simulate not only a sexual partner, but an emotional one as well. I feel like this group is the stereotypical one that everyone thinks of when they think of guys who want sexbots. It’s also the group that’s the more uncomfortable for me and, I think, many people. In this group, you have men who say they want sexbots because “they can never break your heart” and that they’ll be an always-submissive partner. These wants are difficult for me to sympathize with, since at least some of them seem to be saying “I want a woman with no wants or needs outside of pleasing me.” I get that having a partner that basically doesn’t exist outside of their relationship with you isn’t a fantasy limited to sexbot enthusiasts, or to men, but making it a robot feels like taking it too far. Also, it elicits some of the same reaction I have to animatronic pets. Whenever I see animatronic pets on a tv show, I go to a place of sadness, and maybe even pity, because it isn’t real. I understand that these are probably great for some people, especially the elderly and very young who might not be equipped to take care of a real animal, but it just feels hollow. I might feel put-out that my cat isn’t particularly affectionate or cuddly, but I love him and I like that he has freewill. Ultimately, wanting someone without freewill is utterly foreign to me, and the fact that these almost always are made to look like females compounds my discomfort.

This route, however, is the most interesting on multiple fronts. It is scientifically interesting, or has the potential to be, as the desire for an emotional partner from a robot may lead to interesting applications of AI. Having a robot respond in a way that doesn’t feel, well, robotic will be an interesting challenge. This group of guys, as much as I may side-eye them, is also fascinating. While some want an artificially intelligent sex robot as a replacement for a female partner, others are in relationships or married. These men seemed to want a sexbot in addition to their partners, or at least that’s how it seemed to me. For at least one, sleeping with a robot seemed to be a fetish on the order of wanting to roleplay a specific scenario. Or at least that’s how it seemed to me. I feel like someone should do a more in-depth ethnographic study of this subculture.

The other main group of people working on sex robots is one I understand better. This group, at least those on the supply-side of this group, see the issue of sexbots as an engineering problem. The one developer that they focused on in this group was into robotics and then decided that he could make a lot of money if he could make a nice sex robot (and, yes, I realize I’m saying the person I get in this doc is the one who isn’t actually part of the subculture, but it is what it is). This guy’s main focus was making a robot that could move in a realistic manner, especially when it came to hip movements. He also developed both a male and female model, which soothes my discomfort with the sex/gender issues with the notion of sexbots. This group, I more or less get. I mean, I’m not going to go out and procure a sexbot, but these are basically really elaborate versions of other items that mimic certain parts of human anatomy.

In the end, the sex robot subculture is something to which I will always be an outside observer. I find the men interested in having sexbots in addition to wives and girlfriends to be quite interesting, and I would definitely learn more about them if given the chance. The ones who want sexbots to replace women will always make me a little judgy. And those who want to make elaborate toys, I can basically understand. I don’t know if I’d exactly recommend this documentary. It won’t really change your mind about anything. It is, however, a pretty short watch and entertaining background noise while you’re doing chores.

It’s Personal: Leah Remini’s “Scientology and the Aftermath”

Internet, I’ve been procrastinating. That’s, at least partially, my excuse for not posting earlier this month or on my actual assigned day. The other excuses are that Russian is difficult to learn when you decide to go from nearly 0 to reading proficiency in six weeks and I’m a very lazy person who doesn’t pay attention to the date. The reason I’ve been procrastinating is that I’ve been worried on how to handle this one. I’ve wanted to write about Leah Remini’s A&E series on Scientology, “Scientology and the Aftermath.” While I found it to be a very compelling series, I’m not sure if it is the best put-together documentary show. However, I feel a bit guilty being too critical of it, as it’s obviously an incredibly emotional topic for Remini and she’s very earnest in how she handles it and what she chooses to cover. But I’ve finally decided that I really do need to write this. As something of a compromise to myself, I explain my critiques first and save the praise for last. It may be the same, but it feels better to me.



The Show as Documentary

In this series, which was originally meant to be an 8-part, 1 season series, but which is getting a second season, Leah Remini, a former Scientologist, seeks to expose the various unsavory activities of the Church. Along with her partner, Mike Rinder, Remini interviews a number of former Scientologists, who discuss various aspects of how the Church of Scientology operates and the ways it impacted their lives. Each episode is nominally centered around a topic, though these do blur together somewhat, as they’re really connected as a package of the way Scientology runs. For example, the episode on the impact of Scientology on family necessarily covers ground previously covered in how the Church treats those who leave it.

Overall, I don’t think the blurring together of some of the topics is necessarily a problem in and of itself—it’s often necessary because the real-life boundaries are unclear—but it does contribute something to what I think is the main weakness of the series: the amount of repetition. The two main components of the show are the interviews with former Scientologists and Remini’s musings on what they have said and what she has experienced. The latter part is always set in a bright white room. It’s very A&E. (There’s also a third component, as the two are frequently followed by people associated with Scientology. They have a number of strange run-ins that I find fascinating, but which doesn’t really play into this.) Sometimes this format works quite well, with a more free-flowing interview being summed up by Remini at the end. Other times, it just feels like she’s repeating what was already said. I think I noticed this most in the middle episodes. This may have been due to the fact that much of the information conveyed in those had necessarily been conveyed in earlier ones, but a lot of it felt like the interviewee saying something like “they made my children disconnect from me” and then the show cutting to Remini going, “they made her children disconnect from her.” While I understand the cuts were meant to repeat the information for emotional effect, I don’t feel like it worked particularly well. For me, I felt the emotional effect with the interviewee, so the repetition of the point felt a little emotionally hallow.

However, this may not have been entirely the fault of the show. It may have also been how A&E chose to do their little pre-commercial teasers. They’d often choose Remini saying something in the white room to be the preview of the next section. You’d then get the interview followed by the same scene that was played in the clip before the last commercial break. Because of this, I’m not 100% sure that this is a valid criticism of the series in and of itself, but it was an issue I found in the viewing experience.

The Show as Memoir

Though I can’t find a better word for it, I’m not sure it’s quite right to call the aspect of the show that I’m about to talk about a memoir. That makes it sound like a tell-all of Remini’s life and it’s not. Rather, is a discussion of many different people’s experiences, which often intersects with others’ stories. But it does have something of the emotional honesty of a memoir.

Moreover, this documentary is dripping with emotional honesty. You see former Scientologists opening up and revealing deeply personal things about their pasts, often the most painful parts of their lives. On the one hand, what they tell is valuable because it gives insight into a very secretive and litigious organization, but it’s so much more than that. They reveal real things that happened to real people. I think for a lot of us, Scientology is this wacky religion that believes in magic aliens and whatnot, but it’s more than that. It often works in very cult-like, manipulative ways and people’s lives have been destroyed. This is something that they do say in the show itself and I think it really hits at the heart of the series. Rather than looking at Scientology as a joke, it takes it seriously. And taking it seriously is really the only way to help those affected by it.


While this series may not be amazingly edited, it’s incredibly valuable for understanding the human impact of the Church of Scientology. It’s definitely worth a watch, especially in the next couple of weeks before season 2 begins on August 15th. I know I’ll be watching. And maybe doing another post on it. We’ll see.

Archaeology Ruins Heroes: “Archaeology, History, and Custer’s Last Battle: The Little Big Horn Re-examined”

Sorry for the spacing on my last post, internet. Things were busy. Things are still a bit busy, so I will regale you with another tale of a documentary I was made to watch in class!

That documentary is Archaeology, History, and Custer’s Last Battle: The Little Big Horn Re-examined. As the title suggests, this documentary, based on a book by the same name, tells the tale of archaeologist Richard Fox and how he used a combination of survey and excavation to reconstruct Custer’s battle at Little Big Horn.For those not up with their random battles in the American frontier history, the national mythos surrounding Custer is one of tragic defeat. Custer and his men fought an onslaught of Indians bravely, keeping order and discipline even as they were killed off to the last man. What is generally not highlighted is the fact that Custer was part of a battalion sent to remove a large settlement of Cheyenne and Dakota and force them back onto a reservation. While that fact is something that this film shies away from, it is not the main focus. This short documentary film makes the case that, in fact, the battle was much more chaotic than the popular imagination believes it to be.

Fox and his team to this by studying the distribution patterns of government bullets and shell casings and Native bullets and casings. The bullets themselves allow them to construct the direction of the battle, while casings, which are dropped on the ground after the gun is fired, tell them where the different forces stood. And that’s not even the coolest part. The coolest part is that they can track individuals by studying minute differences in the marks the firing pins of specific, individual guns make. That may sound really boring, but being able to track a single person is archaeology is amazing.

I will admit, however, that I was momentarily appalled by Fox’s field methodology. Don’t get me wrong; he’s going the right thing. He and his team use metal detectors and, when they find something, they dig a small hold to see what it is. Again, this is how you do the study he wants to do. But I was trained to dig things deep underground.. The number one lesson you learn is to always dig in lots (or whatever your terminology calls them) that leave a roughly flat surface. Never dig a hole. But here it’s fine. They’re ultimately doing a survey of things buried slightly underground and they’re taking good measurements of them. But I still had that momentary, emotional reaction.

Fox’s reconstruction of the battle relies on certain assumptions about military order. During the late 19th century, apparently, men were taught to form a ‘skirmish line’ by standing a few yards apart from one another. However, if fear or panic set in, they will tend to bunch as a natural tendency of humans. If things are truly desperate, they will flee and not fight back or only fight opportunistically. It’s somewhat unclear if he’s getting this information from historical texts or ethnographic study, but it does seem to make a certain amount of sense.

With this, Fox makes the argument that Custer’s men were on the offensive for most of the battle, not the defensive as is commonly accepted. While it was believed that they did not go north of what is today known as Custer Hill, the distribution of their bullets and shells suggest that they were headed that direction, presumably to capture the group of women and children who had left the settlement. Once they were outnumbered and their chances of victory looked slim, they began bunching. Individuals seem to have mixed with other parts of the force, breaking what would have been the accepted protocol of battle. As bunching worsens, the ratio of government bullets and casings goes down, suggesting that Custer’s men largely ceased to fight. This is especially true in the final stage of the battle, in which the remnants of Custer’s men attempted to flee into a ravine, an event attested to by Native eyewitness accounts and corroborated by the soldiers who would eventually find the battle ground who reported a number of bodies there. Here, there is only evidence of small amounts of opportunistic fighting by government troops.

I found this documentary to be quite engaging intellectually. Emotionally, I was somewhat cool to it. It’s an emotional subject matter – the US government sent a bunch of men to force people to live on lands far smaller than they were originally promised; these men sought to capture the women and children to force the Native men to comply; over two hundred men were killed, some of them while fleeing – but I didn’t find it as mind-blowing as I think I was meant to. Don’t get me wrong, the tracking individuals by their firing pins was fantastic, but I feel like I was supposed to have an attachment to Custer that I just didn’t and don’t. I remember hearing the words ‘Custer’s last stand,’ but I feel like I never really knew what that was. Which seems really strange, since I’m from just a couple states away. (BTW, did you know that this took place in Montana? I totally thought it was in South Dakota or something. This is more embarrassing when your home state borders South Dakota.) I think I learned about the events around it – Sitting Bull was fairly prominent in my high school history class – but this event didn’t really come up. I feel like a childhood hero was supposed to be shattered in my mind, but I found myself going “well, that does seem more plausible.”

Overall, I’d recommend it. It’s a quick watch if you can track it down. Also, firing pin signatures.